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I’ve learned that I can’t make everyone happy….
That has been a hard thing to face up to because it’s in my nature to try to help others. But there are just times I can’t please others. It’s something that I’ve slowly come to learn over the years.
As I get older I realize that others are going to see me and think not too nicely of me. Some people might think that I’m too much of a goody too shoes or that I can’t be real.
Just because I care so much.
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I have multiple personalities – in a good way!
Some of them I relish and enjoy being. That’s because it’s who I am. There are times I am a moody bitch and you wouldn’t want to be around me. I won’t mince words if I get in a bad mood, I’ll swear like a fisherman’s wife; or I’ll be as docile as a lamb. I can be your best friend for life or I’m going to just cut you off and not give you another thought.
I have many varied interests. Some I pursue on a regular basis, some I don’t. My taste varies from the eclectic to the mundane. I can be absolutely boring sometimes, other times I’m a troublemaker. It just depends. Does that means I’m crazy…wait why am I asking you that question…no that doesn’t mean I’m crazy. It just means that I’m a well-rounded person!
If you’re someone that I like I’ll fool around with you, flirt, pull your leg and have a bawdy time, all in good fun; it’s just me being me.
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In search of my destiny…
There were times in my life when I was more financially comfortable (not rich, but I wasn’t living on a tight budget) that I am now. I’m not ashamed that I have to cut coupons or put everything on a budget, that’s just life for me right now. Which means planning ahead for any expenditure. In a way this is good cause it means I stay out of debt, or at least I’m not creating any more and getting rid of the ones I already have. I don’t have to impress anyone, just make sure that my kids are happy. I don’t have a hundred and one degrees from higher education; I struggle with finding myself sometimes. Not because of any lofty ideals that I have of myself but because I believe in my heart that I am destine for something that I’ve yet to find.
You ever get that feeling that there’s supposed to be more to your life than there is, that you’re meant to be doing something else? That’s what I’m talking about. It’s great when people figure out who and what they are, I’m happy for them that they can do that. At those times I wish I could be that lucky.
Of course I might have already found it but haven’t realized it yet, and that’s why I’m still such a work in progress.
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Talk, talk, talk….
I realize that sometimes I talk too much. I try to curb that habit. I will say a lot only when I have something to say or especially when it’s a topic I can relate to or that means a lot to me.
I hope when I do respond to some of you out there, to your blogs, that you don’t’ find that I talk too much or that it seems that I’m always talking about myself. I don’t know why I’m bringing this up, but it’s something that I’ve thought about now and again.
It’s something that keeps coming back to me because of some things I’ve noticed. Yea, I care about being where I’m wanted.
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Take me as I am……Or leave me the shit alone
Of course it does bother me if someone doesn’t like me, but at this point in my life that’s not something I will dwell on for too long. I don’t look for pats on the backs when I do something to help others, nor do I go around announcing it to the world. I don’t look for everyone to be my friend. And I especially don’t look for someone to like me just because I’m different from them.
That’s the worst part. If I’m a friend of convenience. That leaves a nasty taste in my mouth. Blech! I dislike people who pretend, it’s harmful not just to the person they’re being fake to but to themselves.
I live by my own rules, not by other people’s expectations of me. I also will always remain true to who I am. I don’t need to fake it for someone to like me.
Personally yours…..