It's been two years, well, almost two years since my mom passed and I have not cleaned out her closet as yet. It's a task I dread because I know it will be my undoing.
I've already given the things I know she wanted my siblings to have to them. I've also taken some items I knew my sisters would love to have in memory of her. Check and taken care of.
I will have to do it when I'm home alone. Because it would be too traumatic for my kids or even my husband to see me like that. That time will be for me and me alone.
Everything is just the way she left them. I tried to do it once, but the smell of her perfume and the memories were too overpowering. I ran from the room wiping away a tear.
So I'm gathering my emotional strength and making plans to take a day off at a time when everyone but me will be home.
It's time to complete the task that I began almost two years ago.
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Yes, It's Time
Time to slide the doors and delve within
time to shed a light on countless things
time to breathe once again the essence of her
time to let go of the emotional scars
time to let myself weep, with love
time to have a clean slate
but never to forget
never to forget you
are forever etched in my memory