I am. I'm feeling quite weird and I'm not sure why. I might just be tired. After all it's late and I'm up again. But that's not it. I feel it and I'm feeling weird. I mentioned to my hubby that I didn't like how I was feeling this evening. He put it down to me over doing it yesterday with cleaning up the kitchen.
I'm usually the one on his case a lot about his health if he is taking care of himself or not. He's pretty nonchalant about it.
For me I take my health seriously. Except for being overweight right now, I'm in good health. I know I've been really stressing myself out going over and aboard at work and then at home.
And then I have to also confess that I am freaking myself out too because I am older, I worry about what I might have because my family members had it. In a way it's like setting myself up for failure.
And yes, the fact that I haven't been taking the time for myself, is bothering me a lot. I'm just probably tired and freaking myself out, and probably freaking you out too reading this. I'm sorry.
I just feel so weird and since you're there I wanted to talk about it. I guess it's time to make an appointment to the doctor for my annual. I've been putting it off all year because the last time she saw me I was on this health kick and getting healthier and losing weight and now I'm afraid of what she will tell me. Oh I know it's not the way to look at it. I even recently chastised my hubby for thinking the say way about his smoking and what his doctor would say. But now I understand how he feels. I dont' agree with it, but I understand.
After losing my parents so early in their lives, I wouldn't want that to happen to my children too, so I better really start taking care of me and just forget my stupid hang ups and get on with being healthy. Hang ups that I would never think that I as a free spirited (to a point) life affirming, informed woman would have. Not me, I'm the one that everyone comes to and who doles out advice and who talks the friend through whatever they are going through. I guess I probably need to start having them return the favor, uh?!
Well, I guess this talking session did me some good. I don't feel as weird as when I first started talking to you about it. My hubby is sleeping and I couldn't wake him up to discuss this because he has to be at work really early.
So I do appreciate your 'ear' and thank you for letting me vent a little. And I promise I will go make that appointment tomorrow. I can just hear her now, my doctor, and she will get 'ugly' [read lecture me no end] on me because she knows I should have continued my getting healthy goals...ohhh!