My brain feels fried and I'm so drained. I'm tired, tired, tired. My kids are wearing me out! All I want to do right now is curl up in bed and not leave it for a week.
I'm too mentally tired to even continue writing this. Yesterday in the middle of an overhaul of my laundry room and doing laundry I left everything to take my twelve and five year old to the park and then to their favorite toy store so we could look around and I could have an idea of what they wanted for Christmas. Well, the trip going to the park and the store and while at the store was fine. The trip back home was so stressful I thought I would be the one to run into the back of the vehicle in front of me (and there was a horrible accident on the way back that tied up traffic for an extra 30 minutes) !
My son suddenly started having eye/headache pain that had him thrashing and crying in pain and me not being with any type of pain medicine to give him. I couldn't come out of the traffic and I couldn't do anythng other than try to cosole him while yelling at my daughter in the back who was egging him on because he was crying like a baby and him responding in kind while thrashing and screaming/crying so loudly I thought I would scream!
I will take him to the eye doctor, I have to make an appointment but I have a feeling it might be a combination of migraine and sudden hunger. They didn't want to leave the store and so we took two hours longer than planned when we should have already been home settled eating dinner which was already cooked. Of course all I wanted to do was to make them happy and take them out for the afternoon because it was just the three of us at home, my husband had gone off to some tournament with his friends and my oldest was at a football game and some school activities for the entire day that I dropped her at earlier on Saturday morning. So because I was at home cleaning most of the day, I thought a break would do us good. Well, some break that turned out to be.
And right this very minute I'm drained from talking to them both. I definately need to do something about my feeling stressed and unable to deal with them anymore though. I have to have a serious talk with my hubby to start playing a more active role in helping me to have my me time so I don't feel so stressed. He's off again, yep, ping pong again, and usually I can handle it all, but it's driving me nuts, I'm at the end of my rope and that's not a good feeling. Yelling is becoming a common thing for me now because they are not listening anymore and the only time they do something is if I threaten them (loss of something they want, etc.). I know, it's not the right way and so I walk away. And now I"m going to go lie down and try to get back to my better self, somehow."