There are just certain times when you're having one of those days, when everything goes wrong, when it seems you can never get it right, when you question why me.
There are times when you feel melancholy and there's a cry inside of you and you want to soothe the yearning within that reaches out.
Sometimes it all seems too much and you wonder when will it all just come together and fall into place.
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Sometimes you wonder why some people go through so much some of the time and there's nothing you can do to help. Or you at least try to help but sometimes helping is not enough. Sometimes some people are beyond help and all you can do is look to the higher power for guidance.
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Sometimes you wonder why the world is such a vexation of emotions running rampant and you wonder what is going on? What is God thinking when he lets all this happen? Is he there at all? Sometimes you realise this is the way it has to be. That there are just times when even God has to let things run it's course.
Sometimes he is just letting us learn on our own that which we must. It's all a part of his big plan. And there are times I wish he would clue us in on those plans!
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Then there are times you realise you're just being a big baby and you gotta just suck it up; and there are times when you don't want to suck it up. Who the heck do you think you are telling me to suck it up?!
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There are times you wanna bawl, you know the type of crying that is in no way delicate, the kind that makes you really ugly with snot all over your face? Yeah, bawl, just to get the frustrations you feel inside out. Just to release the pain you've been walking around with for so long, just to let it go.
For what's the use of having all this shit inside of you anyway? It doesn't do you any good right? Why are you hanging on to it like a blanket, a wet one that does nothing for you but make you feel cold and bedraggled!
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I can't imagine what it must be like to be God. To have the responsibility that he does for all of us. To be able to have the power to do what he did and does do. Yet to be able to know when not to do anything to step in and help because he knows that there is a time when the humans that he created will get it.
Have you ever wondered if he sits where he is and wondered if he made a big mistake in creating our world? He did do it right. We can't be such a complete mess? I mean we just can't just be this mixed up, this corrupt, this stupid?! Even after he made his only son die for us, forgive our sins, we continue to do all that we do. I wonder if he ever asks himself "where did I go wrong?" I mean every parent asks themselves this question at one point or another right? He must question himself of whether he's a good parent or we're just all so messed up mentally maybe he shoud start the process all over again! Then again, maybe he's just biding his time, giving us a chance to get it together, to get it right?
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Yeah, being God, I don't know if I would want that responsibility. But I'm so glad he's there though!
For those times when you have one of those moments when you're feeling really low, and you just don't get it. We all have those moments. We move about like automatons, just going through the motions, just because. And if eating an entire box of chocolate or a cup of your favourite ice cream doesn't do it for you; if bawling and venting doesn't do it; if watching your favorite sad movie, just so you have an excuse to cry and drowning your sorrows with your best friend doesn't help.
Then this is the time you need to retreat within and call upon the other resources you use to soothe that melancholy, that fear, those troubled thoughts. This is the time you need to be still and listen to that voice which guides you. You will be surprised at how easy it all seems. Now if only everyone in the entire world could just be still for a moment so as to hear that voice. It might just quell the confusion that goes on.
But know that this too shall pass. That moment when you have the deck stack against you and you don't see a way out. It will pass. It had better or else someone's gonna get slugged!LOL!
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Have you ever listened to India Arie's music? Her latest CD, Testimony is just PHENOMENOL!!! I recommend it wholeheartedly! Her lyrics are so moving.
Here are the Lyrics for
This Too Shall Pass by India Arie
I’ve achieved so much in life
But I’m an amateur in love
My bank account is doing just fine
But my emotions are bankrupt
My body is nice and strong
But my heart is in a million pieces
When the sun is shining so am I
But when night falls so do my tears
Sometimes the pain is so loud in my heart
That I can barely tell the voices apart
Sometimes the fear is so loud in my head
That I can barely hear what God says
But then I hear a whisper that this too shall pass
I hear the angel’s whisper that this too shall pass
My ancestors whisper that this day will one day be the past
So I walk in faith that this too shall pass
When the one that loved me the most
Turned around and hurt me the worst
I’m doing my best to move on
But the pain keeps singing me songs
My head and my heart are at war
Cause love isn’t happening the way I want it
Feel like I am about to breakdown
Can’t hear the light at the end of the tunnel
That is when I pray for healing in my heart
To be put back together what is torn apart
And I pray for quiet in my head
That I can hear clearly what God says
Then I hear a whisper that this too shall pass
I hear the angel’s whisper that this too shall pass
My ancestors whisper that this day will one day be the past
So I walk in faith that this too shall pass
All of a sudden I realize
That it only hurts worse to fight it
So I embrace my shadow
And hold on till the morning light
This too shall pass
This too shall pass
This too shall pass
This too shall pass
This too shall pass
This too shall pass
This too shall pass
This too shall pass
I hear my angels whisper that trouble don’t last always
I hear my angels whisper
That even the day after tomorrow will be yesterday someday
I hear my angels whisper
I hear my angels whisper this too shall pass.