Happy Birthday Daddy
It's been a while since I greeted you dad, it's been a while since I've dreamt you.
I've been thinking about this day all week, while I've been going back and forth with your grand children. It's your favorite time of the year again - Christmas!
I smile when I remember the special time you and mom made it for us kids. This is the time you would be off for two months too! I loved having you around for that long without work hanging around.
I watched the Sound of Music on television last night, it brought me back to the movie theatre, where we all were sitting and having a grand old time, that Boxing Day! Oh what a time that was! I'm glad I got to watch it on the eve of your birthday!
I talked to W yesterday too. He's doing alright. You would be so proud! All the times when we thought he was going to end up with the wrong crowd or some place he shouldn't be because of his 'ways'. You did good daddy. Standing by him, putting him in his place, showing him, he was worth it. He got lost so many times. But through prayers and guidance, yes, I'm proud to say, he's his father's son!
P is not doing so great personally right now. Unfortunately, his marriage is falling apart and there's nothing he can do, that he hasn't tried, to fix it. But sometimes there's just some things you have to let go. She's just not worth it, not anymore and I'm glad he's learned that for himself. Other than that, he's doing well.
J&O are finishing what you and mom started! It's almost theirs! It's rough, but P and I are there to help. We're just so proud of them.
R is doing alrigt too. He's doing fine with his family. He travels often, and I got to talk to him a few weeks ago, which was a wonderful surprise!
Your grand children are so much older now, each and everyone of them. They are all doing well. We hope to have a reunion some day to get everyone re-aquainted with each other. You know it will be up to me to plan it! [smile] That's what I do uh?!
It really hurts me that I haven't been back to visit you dad, not since I laid you to rest. Even when I took mom home. I just couldn't stop by to see you because of the time constraint. I hope you forgave me for that.
I remember feeling that kiss, that night, still so clear as day to me. I thank you for thanking me, it was all I could do to mend the fences.
Last night I felt a presence, I wasn't sure if it was you. Hopefully next time you'll let me know, and let us chat about old times again. Each time that I wear the shirts I took from your closet, it makes me feel closer to you; wrapped in the happy memories of years gone by.
I miss you daddy, now and for always. The pain is fading, but don't worry, your memory is not.
Happy Birthday daddy, and Merry Christmas too.
From your darling daughter who will always love you.