Lyrics, that brings back a memory of you
photographs, that shows an image of you
memories, of things you've done and said
these are all I have of you, that sometimes makes me shed a tear
to remember, to sing, to look back at
a smile, a song you loved to sing, a movie you loved to watch
"la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la..."
Your presence I feel, at times I close my eyes, and I want to touch you
to feel you, to be with you
Just a hug is all I want sometimes and I remember
how good you smelt, how soft your hands were, how gentle your touch
I see your smile, my smile, your eyes, my eyes
I see you in the mirror looking back at me
and I smile through the tears, because I remember you
and how much I used to marvel at how youthful you were and how beautiful
and how proud I was of you
I wish you were here
I wanted to pick up the phone and tell you something the other day, then I remembered that I couldn't do that anymore
Now you're a photo collage on my wall, your eyes follow me where I go
I kiss your lips, I talk to you because it brings me comfort
I look at the many stages of your life, captured in print
and I am grateful to see, to laugh with the younger you,
to chuckle with the older you and to trail my fingers at your wrinkled brow
Words are all I have, when I feel overwhelmed
to tell the stories of you to remind your grandchildren of you
words are all I have to lessen the hurt, that continues to tug at the memory of you lying there and me feeling helpless
your lips that smiled reassurance as you tried to say one more time, "I love you"
I could see it in your eyes and as I whispered how sorry I was and much I loved you too
words are all I have to take the pain away
I sing one more time, humming your favorite tune "la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la, la....."
[thanks to the Bee Gees "Words are all I have" song]