My blogging karma, its gone. At least I thought I had it, now looking back at some of my blogs, maybe I didn't! I don't think I was so bad, I wrote some good stuff; some interesting stories, interspersed with happenings from my personal life. I don't think I was that bad.
Maybe I"m just too whiny or needy, which is it I wonder? I'm too sentimental? Too emotional? It's making me really feel invisible I guess.
Maybe I should make a confession. Yeah, I could do that! I could really do something shocking...hmmmm....I'm too boring to do that! Gee, I'm looking as if I don't value myself and I do!
Aw who gives a rat's ass...I'm doing it again, wondering why I suddenly am on the out list when my friends (if I can call some people that) don't stop by anymore. Then again, it's my fault, I don't visit as often as I used to with some people. Of course a girl does get tired of some of the one-sided friendships!
It does suck, I agree with some of the comments I've seen. Most of us seem to have lost our zeal, our muses and our following. Then again, I should speak for myself! It's like making a picture, a grand movie and it flops at the theatre! You don't realise how much a comment or two means (BlueDev, you were right!) til they stop coming, it's true if you admit it.
It's not about the points, it's about the friendship and when you get to the point where blogging have you writing an article such as this, perhaps it's time to stop. It's a thought I'm pondering, not to be begged to stay, but because there just doesn't seem to be the excitement there anymore. Even commenting seem to have become a chore when the response is nil or cryptic, what's the point?
I miss some of my favs who have moved on, I wish they would come back, spice up the place a bit! I guess blogging is much like real life, people do move on. I've written that before on another blog I'm sure!
It's become an hobby that is becoming less loved, I hate that feeling! I know I'm going to hate myself and feel very embarrassed about writing this in the morning....I'm submitting it anyway. I'm throwing it out there cause that's just who I am, no beating around the bush!
Aww that feels good, letting all that negativity go! OK, blog amongst yourselves, don't mind me!
I won't stop blogging though, not yet. Truthfully, it helps me in many ways. Perhaps I'll just leave them just for my eyes only. I do miss you though, I'm not going to lie. I need more friends and I should go out there and find them around me, yeah, I know that! But blogging is an activity we all love and the biggest part of it are the people who are here.
I would be remiss if I didn't say thank you to you who have been there with me, through exciting and boring and whiny!LOL! I'm very happy you're still reading with me a big smooch to you!
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