[Title changed because hate is a strong word and being blue is more what I feel sometimes!]
Sometimes I do dislike the holidays. Just sometimes. I really love it, most of the times, I really do. Because I have so many happy memories of holidays past and am trying to make the holidays present be filled with love and tradition and wonderful memories for my three kids.
But there are times when it's difficult to keep that smile on my face. When I get in to one of these moods I'm not the easiest person to be around. It's going down memory lane and reminding me that my parents are not around anymore, my siblings are far away and I miss them and all my close friends are also far away and I miss them too!
It also reminds me that it's almost the end of the year and then I think of the goals I had and what I hadn't accomplish thus far. Yeah, I'm a killjoy alright. There's just something about hearing those Christmas Carols - yep, they've started already, that gets me all weepy and wanting to be wrapped in my mom's bed! I'm not depress, it's just the Christmassy blues!
It's 1:05am and I have our tree sitting in pieces all around me, waiting to be completed. I started on this project earlier today because I was in one of those clean everything, everywhere and change the look of our home moods. I did a lot of vacuuming and dusting and de-cluttering (that never ends does it?!) and I have yet to finished! I did about four loads of laundry, mostly sheets and curtains. I had a bin I totally forgot that I wanted to launder again since they haven't been used in a while and I got them out of storage and did them all. Thus far I've changed the living room curtain from white lace summery look to deep burgundy jacquard design with those self valance that looks really attractive, the look is nice. My hubby can't believe I started this project but he knows when to leave me alone!lol!
But this is what I do when I get restless and pensive and think too much. I clean, which is good for my home I guess! So the living room is a sight right now, not to mention the bedrooms! My mom did that when I was younger, I guess that is where I get that from, change the look of our home seasonally (Easter, Summer and Christmas). She couldn't afford to do wall paper and knock down walls at the drop of a hat, but she could change curtains, beddings, bathrooms and really accessorize!
Yes, I guess in many ways I realise I'm just like my mom and I'm not sad about that at all! I've been on the phone with siblings and relatives and friends and it's nice to keep in touch. My cousin called me up and we had a pot luck thanksgiving at her house and that was great since we haven't seen her in so long. My oldest was with us too and that I was very happy about that she wanted to be with us for Thanksgiving!
I haven't started buying gifts yet but I already have a plan mapped out on who is getting what! That is the part that I like, buying gifts for people I care about.
Well, so much to do, so little time as the weekend comes to a close tomorrow. I'm going to do my darnedest to spend less time moping and more time being happy for the rest of the year! I'm really looking forward to the next couple of weeks and counting down the days with my little one!