Am I too fat? Am I too thin? Do I look pretty? How is my hair? We are always questionable as to our looks, the way we look to others and ourselves. We want to look the way how beauty is defined to us on television, at the movies and especially in magazines!
Unfortunately, while their definition of beauty might be good for those who enjoy it, or those who actually look that way, it doesn’t do any good for those of us who cannot live up to that ideal!
Which of you out there is a size 0? And have been for a long time? Have never had that feeling of gawky inadequateness? Which of you out there have never felt like you don’t belong or fit in?
I will be honest that at age 43 today, I still have those moments! I still question my looks, my size, and my appearance as it might be seen in other people’s eyes!
It is not a comfortable feeling! It is a feeling that has been happening since I was 12 and I’m ashamed that it still happens from time to time, especially when I’m feeling quite unhappy with myself. Especially because of my issues with my weight and sometimes my hair. So, yes, it is a baggage that never seems to go away.
There is a light at the end of the tunnel though. There are those moments when I am bold and I don’t give a shit what anyone else sees, or how they feel about what I look like! I have been having those moments lately, and I guess my age is finally kicking in! I do what I want and that is to make me happy, and no one else. I am beginning to dress the way I feel and that is making me happy.
So ladies, (and gents!) this is what you have to do too! You have to do what makes you happy! You cannot go around feeling intimidated and worrying about what others think all of the time. Of course you want to dress appropriately, and do please dress your age! But do go out and have fun with yourself, by doing what makes you happy!