Me, me, me....it's always about me
1. I use the word but a lot (LOL, read Trudy’s blog, link]https://forums.joeuser.com/Forums.aspx?ForumID=17&AID=81008#619447">Link)
Now I use the word however instead
2. I sometimes try to please people too much
Now I just do what I can without driving myself crazy
3. I was letting other people’s opinion and impressions about me intimidate me
Now I don’t give a damn so much (hey I’m only human, it would be lying if I said I didn’t care somewhat)
4. I haven’t been feeling the blogging spirit so much anymore because I was letting others response to me, or perceived response about what I say and how I say it drain my spirit so much I’ve hesitated to respond anymore, afraid of being misunderstood – again
Now I admonish myself not to take things too personally and more of number 3.
5. I also realize that not everyone is going to like me and I can’t force anyone to be my friend
Now I nurture the friends I do have online (and off) and make an effort to “meet” new ones
6. I never realized how much the way I say something is so much different than the norm
I do still speak the Queen’s English and in my Island way after all
So please ask when in doubt and don’t jump to conclusions
7. I am my own worst enemy of self doubt
Now I look at my faults and love them and continue to discover the true me within
8. I really love my kids
I really love my husband
This I know for sure and I love them even more
9. I realize how much they rely on me, so much
Now I realize that they just need to be nurtured and love some more, and I have to remember to take time for me and drag my hubby wherever so that we take time for us
10. I really love to read, I’ve got so many books lined up
Now I’ve promised myself to not take another book from the library until I’ve finished all those books on my dresser! (and I still have a list!)
11. I really love to dance
Now I try to dance everyday, with my three year old and by myself for exercise
12. I really have been so tired lately from lack of sleep
Being a light sleeper, the slightest thing wakes me, plus I’ve been going to bed so late at nights, now I promise myself to get to bed a lot earlier
13. My motivation as been lacking and I’ve been dragging lately
Time to get some needed rest and take another look at my goals
14. Some people might think I’m too goal-oriented
Then I remember #s 3 and 4
15. Sometimes I am loud and sometimes I’m not
16. Sometimes I am too strict or conservative in my thinking
Yet I have my crazy, zany moments
17. I love to laugh (and I have a whacky sense of humor!)
Especially those deep belly ones (that’s quite a good workout for the abs)
18. I haven’t had a beer in a month…and chocolate too….what? (not self imposed)
OMG!!! I’m seriously missing my goals LOL!
19. There’s nothing like a very, very cold bottle of beer
With anything I love to eat – even a cold one and a chocolate bar!
20. I really miss my mom (and my dad too)
It will be almost a year since she died
I keep this big poster I made with pictures of her and other family members on my wall. Every time I go pass it I kiss a picture with her…..and sometimes I talk to her too…in my private moments (besides me, now only you know – shhhh…don’t tell anyone!)
21. I’ve been put on this world to love and accept love and nurture and give of myself to anyone in need
Of advice, friendship, an ear, a shoulder
22. Being true to myself and my spirit is very important to me
Otherwise I don’t function
23. I am what I am what I am
Go back to #s 3 and 4