It's been a while since I've found myself unable to put into words what I am feeling. I have knee-jerk reactions. I get emotional when it's someone or something that I care very deeply about; I go into mood swings, I"m up and I'm down; I try not to overreact because I have to consider the people around me, mainly my children, I pray even more than I usually do and I have my private talks (with God) even more than I usually do. I feel at a loss and helpless and past experiences replay ...